I don’t know what’s wrong with my Microsoft Word, but it keeps giving me error once I want to save my work. It’s a headache for me. Should I restart my computer to get things back to normal? I have P & P (stand for Practice & Procedure) to finish, I hope I can finish it today, as I’m taking my leave just to get off of anything else and focus on this P&P, but this such a problem turn my mood to DOWN.

Thank God, I have my mp3 player with few new downloaded songs that can freshen up my messy mind. Owh, just want to let you know that I’ve downloaded few Feminin & 4u2c songs. I know!!!! I’ve been into GAYing songs lately, but I can’t help myself!! I love to listen to those songs while I was a ‘kid’ (har har har).

Do you want to hear those songs? *lol… okay okay.. I know, half of you want, and quarter of you say NO WAY (but yes sure in the heart), and another quarter say, eeeewwwww… (eleeehhh.. padahal, dulu layan jugak.. weeekkss)

I still remember of 4u2c song titled “I Miss You”. Most of my friends (when we were 12), we love to modify the song with our own lyric that we find from “Akhlak book, or Hadith book (ni buku2 skolah rendah agama)”which for us sounds cool. We’ve conducted unofficial singing competition between us that was judged by us (har har har). We did wrap goodies such as candies, tit bits or small and cheap things as complimentary things to give to the contestant. I miss you guys and I dedicated “Persahabatan – 4u2c” to you!!

p/s- Click Play Button to start listening to the song ya

Have you heard about Backstreet Boys? Yes, boy bands. The infamous boy band, which was not in my list years ago (because most of my friends hate boy band). But we live in a democratic country right; don’t bother what your friends said (*lol ape kaitannya?) .

Okay the purpose of this posting is to tell you that I’m in love with one of their songs, titled: Treat Me Right. This song got the ‘Backstreet Boys’ sense, which reminds me of my teenage memories, a lot! I cant elaborate more about this song, because I’m too sleepy for it, but I’ll share with you the song here. Enjoy!

I am not sure, what I did wrong, I am not sure, what went wrong, I don’t know what should I do, But, I am not stealing away what people have, But only want to share a bit what I had previously.

Its okay, I wont steal it away from you, You just stand there; it will still be there.

There was once a guy who suffered from cancer… A cancer that can’t be treated. He was 18 years old and he could die anytime. All his life, he was stuck in his house being taken cared by his mother. He never went outside but he was sick of staying home and wanted to go out for once.

So he asked his mother and she gave him permission. He walked down his block and found a lot of stores. He passed a CD store and looked through the front door for a second as he walked. He stopped and went back to look into the store. He saw a young girl about his age and he knew it was love at first sight. He opened the door and walked in, not looking at anything else but her. He walked closer and closer until he was finally at the front desk where she sat.

She looked up and asked “Can I help you?”. She smiled and he thought it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen before and wanted to kiss her right there.

He said “Uh… Yeah… Umm… I would like to buy a CD” He picked one out and gave her money for it.

“Would you like me to wrap it for you?” she asked, smiling her cute smile again.

He nodded and she went to the back.

She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store. He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn’t. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her.

So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store. He bought a CD like he did everyday and once again she went to the back of the store and came back with it wrapped. He took it and when she wasn’t looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out…

!!!RRRRRING!!!

The mother picked up the phone and said, “Hello?”

It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, “You don’t know? He passed away yesterday…” The line was quiet except for the cries of the boy’s mother. Later in the day. The mother went into the boy’s room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet. She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one.

Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The mother picked it up and started to read it. It said:

Hi… I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love,Jacelyn

The mother opened another CD…

Again there was a piece of paper. It said:

Hi… I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn

Love is… when you’ve had a huge fight but then decide to put aside your egos, hold hands and say, “I Love You”

Ya Allah… I think, I am happy today.

I don’t want to let you know, what makes me happy,
But I want you to know that I am happy.

Will keep you guys updated, but, I wont reveal all, I’ll keep the rest, and another rest, I give it to you to guess.

I hope, everything goes smooth… Thank God!

When I tell you that I’m afraid of something, yes I do mean it!
When I tell you while laughing that I’m afraid of something, then I lied!

Sometimes I feel so hard to let people understand of what we feel towards something. Sometimes I think people just being selfish! They don’t even consider others.

But every time, I try to understand and consider what is the good behind anything that happened.

DUNIA

Whoaaaa… its nearly weekend. The day that I love sooo much, FRIDAY! I feel much better now, even though I still can feel that my body haven’t 100% recover from the illness. But I’m so happy today because I’ve completed my work even though it was just 55% of it. I need to work harder to complete all tasks before the weekend.

Actually, I miss my kampung so much. I wish to go back this month, but I am financially not stable. I always imagine my mom living there alone with my naughty nieces and nephew. Argh, its a dilemma when it comes to this conditions. I almost lose my rational and mind.

Hmmm… its just 10:21pm and I feel so sleepy, already. so.. I have to say good nigh to all of you… Lets go to bed!!

I took one-day leave today, because I can’t help myself with my back pain. I went for medical checkup today to ensure that I am okay. I feel the dizziness while driving and afraid of hitting another car. I went to one of clinic in Putrajaya and I met a very nice doctor.

I told him that I got a very bad headache and back pain, might probably because of eating lots of lamb last Monday during our ‘Jamuan Raya’ in the office. He started to talk about how bad Malaysian with food, as Malaysia is well known as the ‘food heaven’. We ate a lot and eat until our stomach can’t even breathe. He treats me like I am his very important patient. He consults me with his full of professionalisms.

I do adore a doctor like him. He seems to be flawless doctor to me. I’m not trying to say that I’m falling in love, but to say that I adore him. The best thing was, he gave me one day MC, and that’s the only thing that I wish for. He said, I’m restless and stressed. I bet that he was right. And today, I took my one whole day off, without doing any office work; I just spent my day with sleeping. Thank God, I’m feeling much better now. I wish to have new working spirit for tomorrow.

I got back pain!! Darn it hurts me, so bad.

Maybe because of the new office chair,

Or less rest?

I need my rest, tomorrow?

I should take a leave, yes, I SHOULD!

I need my REST!

Feeling like floating, flying, and hanging…
I can’t feel the ground, for like hour…
I’m blurred, with the pain…
Inside that’s count…

Starving for some cure…
But not a medicine…
Giant foot stepping on my back!
Its hurt! Serious!

I am bored, hungered for a smile…
That I can’t have for this while,
Digging for love, that I lose,
Come back to me, please…

Am I begging?